Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Powerless...Again.

"You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless,
Christ died for the ungodly."  Romans 5:6

Today's source of power...
Powerless.  Again.  It's nothing new for us here in Kaliro, but I'll admit, I'm not used to it yet.  Living without power isn't that difficult, actually; what's almost impossible is trying to live with power and without  power at the same time.  Trying to use your computer, or your microwave, or your hotpot, or your washer (one of two in all of Kaliro, by the way), only to lose power... again.  Being in the middle of some really important research on the internet, only to lose power... again. Talking to your kids on the phone, only to be cut off in mid-sentence because we have lost power... again.  My neighbors don't seem to mind the power cuts very much.  They just carry on, life as usual, oh well, that's just the way it is.  But me? Oh no, I'm going to fix the problem.  No, I HAVE to fix the problem! I'm running a generator right now so that the fridge and freezer don't get too warm since the power has been out for almost 12 hours now, and so that I can use my computer to write this blog post, and oh yea, turn on a few lights.  I'm trying to install a battery backup system so that we don't go dark every time the power goes out (but oh, the cost!).  I'm thinking about solar panels and inverters and ANYTHING that will give me power!

I'm learning, though, that there is a certain beauty in being powerless.  A life without gadgets and televisions and computers and even bright lights has many redeeming qualities.  Spiritually, there is a certain amount of, yes, power in realizing (and accepting) that life is not lived effectively in our own power.  A freedom that comes only from giving our lives over completely to God, who sent his son Jesus to die for us, while we were still powerless and sinful.  And a calm assurance in knowing that he did it all at just the right time.  That's the power that keeps us going here in Kaliro, and more importantly, it's the power that keeps us spreading the gospel to those in need all around us. 

I haven't given up yet on correcting our powerless situation here in Kaliro.  But I must be willing to give up my misguided notions of successfully wielding power in my life and ministry!  No generator, no solar panels, no battery backup needed.  I must become powerless, again.  But in a very beautiful way, when I become powerless, I then become full of power in Jesus Christ, through whom I can do all things! Plug me in!

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